Day One

Dear Diary,

Today is day 1. They say the first day is the hardest. I dont know about that, but it wasn't exactly easy.

Not only is this day 1 for only 1300 calories or less, this is also day 1 of no more sodas!

I'm not sure which one will be harder. Why you ask? Well for a couple of reasons. For me, sodas are the equivalent of a cigarette to a 20 year smoker. One drag, or rather sip, throws me right back into the spiral of downing Dr Pepper like my life depends on it.

The problem with that is, the longer I continue to drink them, the more my life does depend on them. Well, maybe not my life but certainly my sanity.

The second reason is my job. As a "perk" they give us free sodas of all kinds! While its a nice added bonus for some, for me its like throwing a recovering crack head into a pile of free cocaine!

So as I lay here in bed happy, and very tired after my first full day without my DP fix, I'm just happy that the headaches haven't started yet. I already know that tomorrow will be a different story, and I am not looking forward to that. I'll keep you posted.

So let's get to the food part. I LOVE food. This is the main reason I'm fat. The other reason is that I don't want anyone to look at me, and as any fatty, or former fatty, can attest to, the space you take up the more invisible you are. But, we can save that for another day!

Even though tons of people are going to tell me how bad this is, I was inspired by Jenny Craig on this journey. I can't afford an extra car payment to actually be on Jenny Craig, but its frozen prepackaged meals. I can do that myself.

Yes I know, they are processed, and full of salt! I don't like to think too much. I hate to weigh, and constantly by foods and have to cook all the time. So, for the time being we are going to try this out.

I started with Oatmeal for breakfast, and it was horrible. Given, I dont care much for oatmeal, but I keep hearing how great it is for you, and how it keeps you full for hours. OK, but it tastes like cardboard, and I dont really enjoy that flavor too much.

So zoom ahead to the end of the day, and the note that I did also have fresh apples and orange s today too (step back haters). 1276 calories. I am starving!

This is not my first rodeo. I know it'll get better, and my stomach just has to get used to less food, but it still sucks.

Day 1 is complete, and I am proud of myself for today, even though I dread tomorrow, because for me 2nd day is always the worst.

Tomorrow, I will have reason 1 for 100 reasons to lose 100 pounds. Inspired by a very fit former fatty friend of mine!